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"When two people are meant to be together, they will be together. It’s fate."
— Sara Gruen (Water for Elephants)
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Day 82: I am grateful for a night apart
After the two days I’ve had I need time apart and while I miss Him, I’m grateful there’s another event keeping us apart tonight.
Everyday it’s becoming harder and harder to be there; reminded of everything I did and what has now become of my role - sourcing promotional pens and listing items on eBay. It’s pathetic. I once drove the marketing of that business and now… It’s dead. Handed over to other people in the organization. They now have the driving force.
I want nothing more than Him to come out if this situation financially positive but I hope these new driving forces crash off course and hit the Evil Witch.
So tonight, I’m grateful to be sleeping in my bed, watching what I want, sleeping til the time I want and doing as I want.
Day 81: I am grateful for “free” dinners
It’s a struggle to find a positive thing about that office and it would have to be the free dinners I am able to consume certain nights of the week, whether that be home cooked or dining out.
Day 80: I am grateful for breakfast with sis
I should get out of bed. In a couple of hours sis and I are having Sunday breakfast. I’m quite liking this new occurrence. (It’s too early to call it a tradition). AND I’m looking forward to the corn fritters I should have got last breakfast instead of the eggs Benedict!
Day 79: I am grateful some more crap is cleared
If i could rewind 12 months business-wise I would. Not make all the stock purchases I did. Oh it’s such a waste the amount of our money I spent. Nonetheless, what’s done is done and I have to work to get out of the hole.
It seems everyday that passes, this eBay experience is costing us. In listing fees or postage. It’s definitely costing me in time! And joy and happiness!
To move some of the stuff I spent all of Friday afternoon sorting and photographing bulk item listings. And are happy to say there’s now ten parcels that need to go out on Monday and we have an extra couple hundred in the bank.
The piles are getting smaller but there’s still so much to get rid of and before eBay hits us with another month’s worth of listing fees I need to decide what to do with it before it costs us more money.
Day 78: I am grateful for new attitudes
All year I’ve been allowing myself to wallow in the self pity that is my life. But things won’t change for the better if I continue to believe the worst.
Another post office run today took me to one of our major shopping complexes and as I sat eating lunch alone I was surrounded by mothers and prams and babies, eating in groups and conversing on what I imagine was secret mothers business.
And as I sat there munching on my burger, it hit me; with Him, I’ll never experience this. I won’t be part of any mothers club, I won’t have friends from play school and I certainly won’t have lunch dates with other mothers. And up until now, these kind of thoughts resulted in me crying about everything that I’m losing being in this relationship, all that I’m giving up.
But this time? I thought a bit further. And realised there are times when I much prefer my own company, my girlfriends have been few and far between because I prefer to stay out of the petty little dramas we women gossip about and above all, I wasn’t losing things being with Him. I’d be gaining them… Freedom, new experiences, a love that brightens my day each day we’re together, education and understanding, passion and fun.
Hanging on to this will get me through. I want nothing more than his baggage to have been discarded but I know I can’t control any of it so with my new found attitude, I just have to ride out the wave.
Prepare Your Mind. If you want good things to happen to you, you have to get yourself in a good — positive! — state of mind. I’ve mentioned this countless times before but I’ll write it again: if you’d not looking for good things in your life, you won’t find them. How you view the world is all…
"I have a theory that the answers to all of life’s major questions can found in a John Mayer song."
— Susane Colasanti (via justbesplendid)
Day 77: I am grateful for the help of a friend
I locked myself out of the house yesterday which was quite idiotic but with the stress of running late for a lunch date and carrying damn parcels in my hands I left my house keys in the kitchen and locked myself out of the house.
It was the next step in what was possibly another worse week in this life I lead.
I’m grateful for my friend Chooklyn who helped me retrieve keys and listen to me as I detailed why the rest of the week had been so bad. Thank you Chooklyn.
Day 76: I am grateful it’s over
Another working week in that office done. Hallelujah.
Day 75: I am grateful for accepting when you’ve lost
I lost today to the anger and fear. I let it win and I quit. Even going so far to clear out my desk and hand in my company phone… Hopefully, if I return it’s been stolen from the place I left it.
It’s funny, the consequences of our actions. How one simple decision cannot only affect the course of your day but your life.
I hope that they learn and suffer the consequences of their actions. I doubt they will though. They’ll remain oblivious. For 50+ years they’ve been oblivious. And I’m grateful that one day, not sure when, but one day they too will realize how much they’ve lost.
Day 74: I am grateful for knowing when to let go
In recent months, a close friendship has started to drift and the other party hasn’t been pulling their weight, so to speak. People come into our lives for various reasons and can last for life or only periods. I’ve learnt that it takes two sides to the relationship; both to show interest, and communication and most importantly, to care. And when one isn’t, its just time to let them go. I’m grateful that I’ve found the confidence to do just that.
Day 73: I am grateful for lunch with Mum and the Sis
And a tasty, fulfilling and enjoyable one at that.
Plus cheap Wasabi Masking Tape! Awesome!
